That's the part that bothers me about having a vision for something. Whether its the vision of some entrepreneur for a hot new company or an 18 year old's vision for their future. We are sold one thing, only to discover that thing is a little more hypothetical than we expected. The company isn't as great as it could be. College... well, it just wasn't what you thought it would be. That dream job, the burgeoning success that you think you're on the verge of, the house, the wife, the two and a half kids, they're all just
Just like that. Plain, courier font because I don't know how to change it. It didn't turn out how I expected. Which makes sense because this is only 24 no matter how much the ol' bait and switch might suck. Really, it doesn't suck, we just don't understand it. Or, I don't understand it. Maybe this is what its about though. Not understanding. Just living and breathing and trying to figure it out. The struggle and tension constantly shaping us, making us stronger, perhaps even preparing us for something. Maybe I'll look back and everything will make sense. Maybe none of it will. I guess that's why it is important to live the adventure.
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Life is certainly different than I might have imagined. And then in many ways it's exactly like I imagined which can be both nice and disappointing. Sometimes it's hard to imagine being married and having a child even though that's the reality I live every day. And it's a wonderful reality, but single life was fun in other ways. I hope you'll enjoy it.
Happy (late) Birthday Doodie! If I were there I'd buy you peach rings and tell you to cut your hair. :) Here's to the old days! And on to the new!
I wrote in my journal on my 23rd birthday, "Life is so complex. And it has not gone according to my plans at all. It's been richer and more beautiful and more full and more hurtful and more confusing and more disappointing and more encouraging." It doesn't look anything like I thought it would when I was younger and looking ahead and wondering.
Ha. :) I'm sure I'll think that in 20 years when I look back at how I view my future now. :)
Wow, how long have you been 24 for?
There's no right answer here. Nothing that anyone's going to say to make it all make sense. Because, it doesn't make sense. No matter how much we try or want it to, we can't make it make sense. It just happens. Random, chaotic, accidental. You are the only constant from day to day. Until you're not, anyway.
I think that sounds pessimistic, but it's really not. In fact, I've found it mostly fun: I'm the only thing that is guaranteed in my world tomorrow, the rest is a roll of the dice. If you're the strongest force in your world, what can't you do?
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