Deafening Silence.

You know when you can't stop thinking... either about someone or something, and no matter what, the thoughts

just

won't

stop?

I'm not even really sure of about half of what I'm thinking either. That's the part that really kind of gets me. Normally, your thoughts are what only you can control and nobody else. I guess sometimes that isn't true. It's like every time I stop to do anything, what would normally be silence is now deafening. All I can think about is what they must be going through... all of the horrible things going on in the lives of people I know and some I've never met, or other things like... and how much I love certain things and how much I hate other things, and how... Then of course there are thoughts about how I have become a terrible student. Graduation, a job, an internship, where I will live, how I will retire. Some of those are a little exaggerated, but I think about all of them. Each of them a faint murmur lurking in the shadows of my mind, together creating something much more than a quiet whipser. It is a deafening silence.